Monday, October 31, 2005
sry if i offend anyone ..
but wads bout religion ? ...
isnt it just ppl indulging in self denial ...
i dunno ..
tts wad it seems to me ...
gd bYe ...
tots in a whrilwind
11:34 PM
bottles of tis would be so good ...
i rather have white wine now ..
but still .. these would do fine ..
cravin to get tispy ..
stumbling here and dere ...
tink i have sch on hong's chalet
anyways .. will pon lar ...
no1 prioity -- chalet on the 8 .. haha
3:58 PM
chinese is finally over .. YEA ...
hope tt i pass ...
AND NEVER TOUCH CHI AGAIN ...
cool ritez ...
chinese sarks .. haha ...
3:49 PM
Sunday, October 30, 2005
ritez now ..
complemplating whether to study fer chi not .. haha ..
wad the hell can i study ? ..
boon sae listen to chi music ..
prob is tt i dun realli hvae those ..
been listening to zhou jie lun last nite ..
over and over again .. all his albums ..
kept reminding of the O's days ....
well i shall go play now ...
studyin would come ltr ...
CHINESE SARKS .....
whu is the idiot whu created chi ..
he is an idiot ..
isnt english so much better?
11:45 AM
Saturday, October 29, 2005
cant put wad i feel into words ..
11:40 PM
whitley carnival ..
was boring .. and food sarks ... haha ..
but still its great to be back ...
goanna be torn down soon .. hiax ..
hope i'll get my window plane ..
went pooling after tt..
boon mh ernest des jia kat ...
met andrew muiting cassian haotan dere ..
life is full of surprises ...
8:11 PM
just as everyting seems to fall into places ..
did all go wrong ...
and back to square 1 ...
will can i do ...
i realli dunno
guess comin to yj has made mi mentally stronger .
in a bad way tt is ..
the time i used to fail my test ..
i would cry or be so scared ...
nOW? ..
just when my teacher said i ffaiiled ..
i'd just shrug and screw the god damm sch ...
i'll screw everyone but myself ...
YES ... MYSELF ...
i'm to blame fer all tIS nonsense ...
y didnt i stay in sr ...
maybe i could be better ? ... or worse ...
everyting may turn out to be wad i wanted? ..
fuck ...
i hate destiny ... i hate fate ...
how long are u gonna torture mi ..
e unsoundness in mi is takin its toll ..
was so bad in pool 2day ...
lost all the way against mh and des ..
guess my mind was not on the game ....
everyting look so out of sorts ..
havin tots whther to attened the carnival ...
or coop up and hide at home ..
12:07 AM
Thursday, October 27, 2005
fuck ...
i am so pissed ...
sick fer a day ..
and everybodys complaining ..
fuck .. just fuck ...
am i so notti ? ...
kill mi alr ..
retain mi ...
kick mi ...
fer all i care ...
i am already traumatised ...
in such a bad of bad sch ..
i realli need to promote ..
so fuck tellin mi all these nonsense ..
u wanna see my mc ? ..
i have nONE ..
i jUSt had a bad headache ..
cuz mY teeteh HURTS ...
arhgHH .. fuck ....
get lost .. go to hell ..
i am not tokin ever again ...
FUCK , period
11:24 PM
finally i had a gd meal ...
nt realli gd but filling ..
went wif hong to eat bah cho mee ..
den had prata ...
ate like siao lar ..
even had tis ...

big ritez ... biggest thosai i eeaten .. haha ..
ltr went slack at his hse ..
did pw ...
the rest came to my hse ltr
during tt time .. hong boon and i went pool ..
well wasnt as bad as yesterday ..
tis i where the gd part shall end ...
now ...
to hell wif pw ...
she wans to see my mc 2ml ..
haha .. but i have none ..
scold mi lor ...
i hate it meh ... fuck ...
pw sarks lar ...
op onli ...
my teeth is damm pain lar ..
have headache and flu still ask mi go sch ..
argHH ... fuck fuck fuck ..
to hell wif my life now ..
y must i keep tinking ...
always on my mind ...
10:54 PM
its now quite late ...
dun tink i'd go sch 2ml ..
its a waste of my time ...
moreover .. i'm shaged ..
wastin time in sch has made mi tired ..
syptoms of flu is arising ... haha ..
so i shall take a day off 2day ..
3:14 AM
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
sense of deception ..
island of desolation ..
fearless of fools ..
i just cant admit it ..
1:22 PM
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
msging a good fren now ...
guess i'm nt the onli one tt does not bond wif the class ..
its been how long ...
yet ... i dunno .. i dun feel attach to dem ...
yea ... its mi ... i noe ...
the arrgorant .. foolish ... incompetent slacker
i truely need more frens ...
hvae been quite neglectlent in jc ..
i tink its mi .. i acnt adapt ...
i'm sry ... i tink their tinkin at mine very diff ..
realli cannot make sense of myself ....
i'll try to improve myself .... I PROMISE
shaun .. u've been damm bad tis year...
pls wake up ...
next year As le ... okay ? ..
been playin .. ponning ... drinkin ...
failing .. tinking.. slackin .. crying ..
lettin ppl down ...
breakin promise ...
hurtin ppl ...
everyting tts nt suppose to do ...
break every rule ...
okay .. wadever ... jUSt behave yrslef ...
but at least i didnt smoke .. kill .. or die ..
to tia .. we'll have a drink after cLao paper ...
haha .. cheers ...
to u .. yea .. i'll try sort my feeling ...
10:17 PM
i just wan u u u and u alone
cant beleieve i made the same mistake again
4:35 AM
Sunday, October 23, 2005
i'm here to whinE again ...
to make it short ...
i dun wan to go sch ...
end at 5 everady ..
wif 3 hrs of selfstudy ..
mY fuckin god ... wad self sTudy ? ..
math ? .. pHY chem ? .. FUCK THE SCH ..
i hate dem so mUCH .. arghh ..
adding on to my misery ..
10:59 PM
the ting tt nv happened ...
i hAte u very much ....
i hate myself too ..
nothin i could do ...
10:58 PM
fate ? .. wad is the fate ...
you... the one up dere ...
y are u makein my life so miserable ..
is it just not fated to be ...
must i tell b4 everyting is lost ..
2:31 AM
back early ..
guess the rest must still be dere ..
one whole bottle was finished .. haha ..
wad fun the nite was ...
12:33 AM
Saturday, October 22, 2005
scissors paper stone ...
itS not a chiLD's game ...
so reported by the papers ..
tts obvious rite ...
it requires menatal and flexibility ... haha ..
wth .. i love tt game ...
12:19 PM
Friday, October 21, 2005
another day ...
the truth lies on this path ...
tis path i muSt walk through ...
though being ignored ...
wads the use ..
i'd still finish wad i am suppose to do
is it just coinicidience
or juSt you
3:15 AM
yawns ...
slept fer onli 4 hrs in the past few days ..
wathcin tv and plain com like mad.. haha
i miss studyin .. lol
i need to buy lotz of tings .... argH ..
1. bowling ball
2. ipod nano
3. trolley fer bowling
4. ps2
5. com
haha .. all dam ex lar ..
where am i gg to get the money! .. arhHJj
12:03 AM
Thursday, October 20, 2005
haha .. been watchin shows the whole nite ..
wad a way to spend my 1s nite after promos ..
practise ..
hill top tree ..
wrestling ...
champions league ..
shagged le .. gd nites ..
4:45 AM
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
anyone nt gg sch 2ml ..
seriously .. i'll be damm bored ...
call mi out ... pool bowing ? running wadever ..
fuck ..
i just finish exam and all of dem are having lessons ..
argHH ...
i am such a loner ...
nt tt i dun go out wif my frens frm sch ..
but den .. i'm nt realli close 2 dem ..
hiax .. loser rite ? ... how many mths le ..
gd frens now are hard to come by ...
hopefully i'll make more fren in my time in sch ..
11:32 PM
Monday, October 17, 2005
oHh fuck man ....
phy 2ml and i'm still here .. wth ...
lOOk ... everyone is getting promoted ...
i hope i can too ..
chem went okay ... *hopefully ..
argHh .. phy is a killer ...
i wan die le ...
studied frm 2 to 6 .. 7 to 8 ...
just concentrate le ..
will start muggin at 9 ...
pls god .. let mi pas my phy exam ...
i need a fuckin 55 ! ...
highest i ever got was 45 lar ...
sighh ... i am all confused and worn out ...
8:28 PM
fuk ... i cant study at home lar ..
need someone here ..
but still ... so fucked noisy ..
the crows .. the cars ..
den gt couple quarreling ...
now gt baby crying ... aegHH ..
fuckin irriated ... decided to stop and blog ...
i will buy and build my hse one day ...
one top of the HDB hub ... wahhahhaa ..
okay .. crazy mi ... back to work
5:27 PM
Sunday, October 16, 2005
i wan to pass promos ..
after studyin so hard ...
i still gt tis fucked up feeling ..
tt i dun noe anyting ...
argHh .. iTS killin mi ...
juSt 3 days to go ...
it would be a whirlwind ..
just 3 days to decide my faate ...
whether yo stay dere fer 1 more year ...
or the path i dun wanna tink off ...
a path i nv realli considered ..
dreading every moment of tis feeling..
guess afetr tt ...
i would be happier than aafter O's ...
hiax ... jc is realli a tough step ...
without u i feel terrible
have nt seen or heard frm yar ..
7:05 PM
back to square 1
12:48 AM
Thursday, October 13, 2005
bcuz of the miscommunication ...
everyting went wrong ...
6:51 PM
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
i guess u're right .
i dun realli noe
i sark rite ..
just didnt wan to amit ..
11:41 PM
at tis crtical stage ..
i'm still here .. i dunno y ..
but somehow .. my mind is not focus on studyin ..
i guess deres much more to it den study to me now ..
as each day passes ...
my comtemplation of being retained increaes ..
many around mi hvae affected mi ..
y .. y is my life like tis ?
i cant even hvae a day to study myself ...
at tis period .. i'm still finsihin wr ... hiax ..
the expectations are high ..
y didnt i just go poly ...
and all these stress will nv occur ...
y didnt i just do badly and hvae less expectataions to shoulder ..
i dunno ..
its miserable ..
dun they noe deres tings more den studying ..
arghh ... fuck the system ... screw all ...
tis is not me at all ..
i hvae to try to find the real mi ..
someone tts hiding deep inside the whole time ..
i'm just afraid ...
the way react in sch and outside is diff .. y? ..
must i adapt to my surrounding ? ..
i dun noE ... nothin cool now ..
4 more days ... to the casket ..
heck ... gd bye ...
11:22 PM
after practiclly using my brain fer the whole day ..
i'm dead tired ...
had math tutorial in the afternnon ...
wif quite a few maths teachers .. ahhaa...
have been doin wR fer the past 4 hrs ...
jUSt dyin now ...
brain dead ... even hvae to go sch 2ml .. omg ..
2ml is teh last DAY i'll go sch til promos ..
good bye everyone .. cyas ...
juSt hope we'll all pass and be promoted ...
12:33 AM
Monday, October 10, 2005
onli u can be my escape
7:17 PM
Saturday, October 08, 2005
he put the bottle on his head and pulled the trigger
he finally drank away her memories
life is short
but this time was bigger
than the strength he had to get up on his knees
2:32 AM
Friday, October 07, 2005
haha ...
looks liek another niec niTE fer mugging ..
didnt do much 2day ...
sky filled stars and cresent moon ..
wad would happen if all dies .. leavin mi and u
the silent wish ...
may it be upon the sun filled valley ...
gangrene setting mi ..
fer fear of wad may lay ahead
fer not gg sch 2day ...
my wr was severely rejected ...
i am so pissed ..
its like 1 more week to promos ..
and? ... pw is still here ... wtF man ..
c*& b% kN@ .....
now .. i'll try to use less vulgurites ..
but in my life .. it would be hard..
11:47 PM
Thursday, October 06, 2005
looks like i gonna stay home do self revision 2ml ..
den go poly take mc ...
tink i gt insomia again ... hiaz .. tis is bad...
but i can study wif it .. haha ...
chaos ....
self discilpline ... the ultimate test for the next 1 week
11:24 PM
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
and i was conned by that stupid auntie ...
photocopy 1 sheet fer 10 cents .. wth ...
moreover.. it was 69 pages ...
thus, i was scammed $6.90
i hAte those scammers ...
get well soon*
6:56 PM
haha .. wTH ...
and now garnesh noes my name ... hAIz ..
it was a long time coming i guess .. haha ...
sch is boring...
should hvae stayed home and mUG ...
9:13 AM
Monday, October 03, 2005
there's so much tings to sae
so little time ...
at the spur of the moment ...
i 4got wad i wanna sae ...
2day was horrible ...
nothin went rite
am i not hardworkin enough? ...
life sarks man ..
looKs like i shall sit at the top floor ...
wanting to jump down ..
den would they realise it ..
10:42 PM
Saturday, October 01, 2005
bowling ...
u dun need talents ..
just peserverance and work etic ..
the seminar ..
although boring but meaninful ..
hiaz .. onli we we can become tt gd ...
could any1 sponsor mi bowling ? hahas..
however .. now fer promos ..
gp on mon ...
hope it'll be okay ...
tryin my very best
happie childrens day ..
am i still one ? ...
i hope so ..
i realli wan to be ...
10:17 PM